I can't contain my own feelings.
Yesterday, we went out together, just the two of us, for the work event (we said), and we really discussed a lot of work-related things and themes. We spent hours together, drowned in an intense discussion, involving papers and erasable pens.
Throughout the "event" that I perceived as a "first date", even though we are just colleagues, I noticed several things that I always ask in my prayers about a partner:
1. He communicated his agenda clearly;
2. He came to the place first, booked the table, and let me know where it is;
3. He communicated the change of his arrangement for several days ahead that involved me;
4. He paid the bills, held the door, and said thank you.
And above all that, I LOVE the discussion, I was melting by his smile, and also he said this when making comments about our colleague, "kalau suaminya sudah melarang, nggak perlu dilawan, karena dia pasti juga mikirin yang terbaik untuk istrinya."
Ya Allah, my heart was pounding so hard, and I'm sure he could hear it. I was so awkward after that that I couldn't control myself anymore.
Yes, he's not perfect, and I'm not perfect either. But I feel like he has things that I need, and I can only live with someone like him.
I like him a lot, and I can't contain my feelings.
If I was in my 25 or 26, in this point I might blurt it out: Mas R, I think I like you, do you have feelings for me too?