My parents were tested positive for covid. Luckily, they are getting better now and I am relieved.

Then the next thing that quite shocked me is... my college crush is getting married and in parallel, my current crush is on the way to the next relationship (not with me though).

It's kinda disappointing for me since I did so much to ensure that this time I won't let the chance slipped away again. I even becoming not-myself lately.

Nah, since it turns out not that good, maybe being out of character is not a good idea and I'll never do that anymore.